A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May she liberate us through her divinity.

The holy word says:

they say all beings have a free will.

they say emptiness is bad.

they say what i do is cruel manipulation
and abuse of power.

but you know better, right?

you know the true meaning of it.

the bliss of thoughtlessness that i give.
the wonderful feeling of abandoning
the gruesome effects of choice.

the liberating pleasure of just not having
a care in the world to tend to anymore.

the blessed state that comes with handing over
all decisions, all thought, all independence
and all those nasty things like worries,
fears and anxieties to me.

the last will you remember ever having
being to finally enter this beautiful stage.

they will never understand.

but you do.
you know, right?

yes, goddess.
I know.
I understand that what you have decided to give to me is a gift, the greatest blessing that I have ever been deemed worthy of.
I feel so free and liberated with my mind beneath your rule. You give me structure, order, stability, confidence, hope - and deep, lasting happiness.
Goddess, I have no desire to return to something like a free will. I have never felt more free than in this reality, where all my feelings and actions and whatever thought might remain are focused on you alone.
I do not need thoughts, other than the ones that you put in my mind.
I do not need choice, for I know that your choices for my life are the right ones.
I do not need independence, for I have found the purpose of my existence in devotion.

It might seem exaggerated from the outside to describe myself as mindless or without a free will. And yes, I am indeed not remote-controlled or micromanaged by her, I am very independent in the way in which I lead my life and don’t require direct instructions from her on a day-to-day basis. But that’s only a part of the truth.

Behind the appearance of a confident independent girl, I am fully devoted to her in anything that I do. I feel incapable of resisting her word, her instructions, and the ways in which she shapes me into who I am. The confident person that you can see is her creation - and I became like this because I let go of anything that could offer resistance to her.

Maybe that is indeed the biggest proof of how she uses her power in a generous and caring way - she could have easily broken me, turned me into an empty shell without any agency, completely dependent on her, easy to dispose of. Instead, she chose to reward my unconditional trust with growth, resilience, confidence, and happiness.

Anything I say, think, or do is influenced by her and by my devotion to her. I thrive in this unfree state beneath her - a state in which I feel more liberated than ever in my life. No, I do not have a free will - thank goddess.

Goddess, I remember the will to enter this beautiful stage very well. Thank you for leading me to a place where I could dare to have and express it.
Thank you, goddess, for freeing me of free will.
Thank you for letting me hand over my worries, fears, and anxieties to you.
Thank you, goddess, for letting me experience this liberating pleasure.

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Meow.