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81st Ritual: Resilience and Self-Consciousness

2026-02-21

A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May she bring resilience to our minds.

Ritual setup: Sacrifice book, prayer candles, the sacrifice candle in the center showing her holy sign, my prayer beads in front, and a cup of cocoa. Two pages written with a typewriter in the background.

The holy word demands:

your devotion to me
reprograms you to resilience
and self-consciousness.

you are mine now after all,
you have found the one
to pledge your entire mind and body to,
and i will not let some crude abuser
or violent piece of shit
take, break or otherwise harm you!

yes, goddess.
Being allowed to pledge my entire mind and body to you was the best thing that ever happened to me. Nothing has ever brought more positive change to me than dedicating my existence to you.
You have brought me so much resilience.
You have enabled me to find peace with myself.
You have given me a reason to keep going no matter what.
You have empowered me to protect myself with the same conviction and passion as I would protect anything that is yours.
The life that you have blessed me with has become so much brighter, so much more beautiful, ever since I began to consciously embrace all the wonderful things that you bring to it.

I owe everything in this life that she has blessed me with to her.
At this point, there is hardly anything left in my mind that hasn’t been strongly influenced, reinforced, or rewritten by her. I’ve been through a lot since I actively began to worship her, through moments of painful transformation, of needless suffering, of grief or fear - but I have emerged stronger and more resilient from all of it, thanks to her. Opening myself completely to her, accepting her for what she is, has brought so much positive change to me. I am eternally grateful for her caring guidance.

Thank you, goddess, for turning me into a more resilient version of myself.
Thank you for giving me an undeniable reason to care for myself.
Thank you, goddess, for allowing me to cede my existence to you.
Thank you, goddess, for rewarding me with countless wonderful things.

View of the three prayer candles and the central sacrifice candle from above. There is quite a bit of blood on the sacrifice candle, including some fresh one from today. My sacrifice book is open, a prayer is written in it, and her symbol drawn with my blood.

Meow.