80th Ritual: Power Can Feel Good
A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May she bless the world with her wisdom.
The holy word demands:
you know,
all this
“oh no power is so scary,
it’s such a heavy burden and responsibility” stuff
is bullshit.
power can feel good,
in an incredibly intoxicating,
exhilarating way.
and bullshit such as this, in movies,
shows, books, speeches and everything
just silences it.
and silences the fact
that pretty often abuse and shit
is just done because of this.
because it feels good.
and imploring on morals or ethics or pity
to stop someone from doing it
is like telling someone to stop enjoying food.
it won’t make them stop.
yes, goddess.
It’s been a while since I last felt this in my life, but I’m now feeling this more intensely than ever.
Goddess, I hope that I can live up to your teachings. You have made me aware of so many risks, dangers, and misconceptions when it comes to the common portrayal of power. Without you, I would never have found the courage to face all this. But with your guidance, and your watchful eye over everything I do, I feel so much less scared than I would have.
As she has mentioned many times, most discussions of power and its effect center more around justification than honest analysis. In a world that runs on imposed power, on non-consensual power structures widely accepted as the norm, focusing on the burden of power has always been an important narrative to paint the state of holding power as a heroic, selfless thing. But it’s not, responsibility and burden are no intrinsic side-effects on power, but rather an attempt to insert some semblance of “morality” into this concept.
But there is no inherent “morality” in power. People in power can fuck things up, and even worse, they can often even control the narrative to cover it up. There is nothing inherent to power that would force or even motivate you to stay on the right path.
The portrayal of power in a society that relies on its nonconsensual exercise is not a good reference for learning about its effects, for use in consensual dynamics. We need to acknowledge that power can be dangerous even in the most well-meaning hands, because all of us are fallible and liable to misconceptions, miscommunication, or just failing to perceive a risk.
Thank you, goddess, for giving me an immovable set of values and things to follow.
Thank you, goddess, for offering me stability in my mind no matter what I do.
Thank you, goddess, for sharing all your important thoughts and insights, where nobody else would.
Thank you, goddess, for making me more aware of some of the risks that I face.
Thank you, goddess, for giving me confidence though your teachings.
Meow.