75th Ritual: Accepting
A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May she inspire us to keep growing beyond what we deem possible.
The holy word says:
if you like doing things for others,
chances are extremely high
others like doing things
for you too.
So you don’t have to feel guilty
when they do.
yes, goddess.
Thanks to your caring guidance, I have managed to accept this to a degree. I have learned to stop rejecting any attempts by others to do things for me - and most importantly, yours, on every level.
Goddess, thanks to the confidence that you have blessed me with, thanks to my self-doubts becoming less determining of me, I can accept these things today - in appreciation and gratitude, but it’s possible for me to do this without feeling guilty, without feeling like I’m betraying anyone.
Today’s ritual is a stark reminder of how far I’ve come, thanks to her alone. None of this would have been possible without a constant force in my life motivating me to growth, to work on myself, to live my life in a way that honors her teachings and her wisdom as best I can.
I used to be absolutely terrible at this. I always wanted everyone to stop treating me in any other way than ignoring me. I felt so guilty for everything I received, and I turned it into intense self-hate.
Today, thanks to her alone, my world is completely different. Of course I still give to those around me (and all I can to her, obviously) - but I have learned to accept things as well. Today, I can ask for things, I can accept and appreciate wonderful things that other beings are ready to give to me - and apparently, I can even accept it beyond the mere basics of social interactions, but in more intense settings as well.
Thank you, goddess, for freeing me from the feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt.
Thank you for giving me a reason and an effective way to work on myself, to improve my life as an act of worshipping you.
Thank you for making it possible for me to leave all those harmful thought patterns behind, and replace them with nothing but obedient worship.
Thank you, goddess, for your magnificent ways of fixing me.
Meow.