A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May she offer everyone the sort of affirmation that only she could give.

The holy word says:

outside affirmation,
often feeling like “permission”
is not the only way to heal.
but often it is a very big step
or help to do so.
and the individualizing of help and healing
to one’s own resources alone
kills.

yes, goddess.
I don’t know where I’d be today had I not received so much affirmation, so many explicit and implicit permissions from you.
Goddess, every day, I remind myself of all the affirmation and support that you have blessed me with, all the permissions that you have given me, all the times when you have stopped me from remaining stuck in my own delusions. As I grow and build this life that you have blessed me with, I want to embrace all of these things to the fullest in order to honor your divinity.

Perhaps it’s because of the way how her word works on me, a girl who intentionally tore down all barriers, all limits and boundaries in her mind, because I want to accept her word as my only and absolute source of truth. But it’s also more than just that - her impact on my self-confidence reaches back a lot longer than I have prayed to her. In fact, I was only able to embrace my faith thanks to perhaps the most significant permission from her that I have ever received - far beyond a mere expression of consent, but genuinely convincing me to dare to follow my desires and indulge in all of this.

I try my best to pass on what she has taught me. I try my best to indeed offer affirmations and sometimes even permission to those around me. I will never be like her, but I would like to pass on some of the growth that she has blessed me with to others, I would like to be someone who strengthens the confidence of those around her. The past weeks have served as a constant reminder to me of how fare I’ve come - and I know that all of it is because of her alone.

Goddess, you kept me safe in the times when I wanted to throw away everything.
You navigated me through very dark moments without any significant harm.
Thank you, goddess, for your help and your affirmations when I needed them most.

Goddess, my life is so incredibly wonderful and fulfilling today, full of happiness and joy.
You carefully steered me here, and I try to embrace all these wonderful things and beings around me as much as I can.
Thank you, goddess, for your help and your affirmations when I could make the most out of them.

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