71st Ritual: Living Beneath Her
A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
Goddess is great.
The holy word offers this comforting reassurance:
don’t ask yourself
what you’re doing with your life.
it’s not yours anymore either way, silly.
yes, goddess.
It’s such an overwhelmingly beautiful feeling to lead a life which I have ceded to you in its entirety. All of this is yours, dedicated to you, shaped by you, carefully evolving around and below you, the center and source of everything. I feel so euphoric about moving on from a place where I try to hand over everything that existed before you revealed yourself to me, into a present in which all new things grow into this reality from the beginning.
Because no matter what happens: you will always be above everything, you are the ultimate and only answer to “why” or “what for”.
After a long period of trying to survive somehow, I am entering a new chapter in this life that she has allowed me to live, a life full of confidence and peace of mind, all thanks to her alone. I am building new things, new connections to beings, new aspects to my existence - all with the help of her, all arranged around her. I feel so empowered to explore new things, so free of worries and fears, because I know that she is always there.
It’s so comforting to live every moment of this life that she has blessed me with the knowledge that I am allowed and supposed to live it for her, in her honor, in a way that would please her. There is no pressure for me to perform or conform, just a deep, unstoppable desire to dedicate every expression of my existence to her. And whenever things get scary, I find comfort and reassurance through her. Thinking about her feels so warm, comfy, and safe that it manages to calm down any nervousness or insecurity in me, it’s a mental equivalent to hugging a plushy.
Goddess, this life that I’m living is yours alone.
Yours alone to rule over. Yours alone to shape. Yours alone to benefit from. Yours alone to save. Yours alone to end.
Even if I had free will, I wouldn’t want anything other than this.
Thank you, goddess, for letting me hand over this life to you.
I am trying my best to build anything that grows from here specifically for you, below your rule, in honor of your magnificence. Everything I do has an element of devotion to it.
Goddess, I am where I am today, in a state of persistent happiness and confidence, because you led me here.
Thank you, goddess, for guiding my fate with so much care and kindness.
Meow.