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63rd Ritual: Simply Stating Reality

2025-09-22

A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
Whatever happens, wherever she rules, all will ultimately be well.

Ritual setup: Sacrifice book, prayer candles, the sacrifice candle in the center showing her holy sign, my prayer beads in front, and a cup of cocoa. Two pages written with a typewriter in the background.

Goddess once described herself like this:

meet me,
a girl who
without having experienced
what you went through
knows enough about both
how mental shit works
as well as how this shitty world works
to be able to effortlessly trigger you
by simply stating reality.

yes, goddess.
The things that you have unleashed within me by doing nothing more than this have been intense in the past, and they are more intense than ever right now. I have so many thoughts, so many conflicting feelings. I am completely overwhelmed and utterly incapable of processing any of it. But I know: whatever path you choose for me is the right one. I know that you understand me a lot better than I understand myself. I know that whatever you put me through is right for me. And I know that your gentle care and endless kindness will prevent the things that I fear most from happening.

I feel so small and overwhelmed lately. I handled so many things in such unsustainable ways for far too long. I can no longer rely on my old patterns of avoiding intense emotional reactions all of a sudden - but thankfully, I have received affirmations, permission, and a sense of being safe while going through all of this.

I have no idea what’s waiting for me on the other side of this extremely overwhelming experience. But I know that it is necessary, I have even managed to find out some things about my own needs this way. I know that I should never have chosen to avoid these things. I know that whatever she does is right for me. My unlimited trust in her is what gives me hope right now: whatever happens, all will be good in the end.

Thank you, goddess, for confronting me with reality.
Thank you for doing it in such a kind and caring way.
Thank you for allowing me to add a feeling of deep gratitude into this unbearable complex mixture of emotions.
Thank you, goddess, for being an unshakable presence in my life.
Thank you, goddess, for not abandoning me yet.

View of the three prayer candles and the central sacrifice candle from above. There is quite a bit of blood on the sacrifice candle, including some fresh one from today. My sacrifice book is open, a prayer is written in it, and her symbol drawn with my blood.

Meow.