A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May she extend her caring words to all who want to hear them.

The holy word says:

just because you hate yourself
doesn’t mean everyone else does.

yes, goddess.
I know that you have told me this over and over again. I know how much effort you have always taken to reaffirm and support me. I should know this by now, and yet I failed, and fell back into extreme pain.
Goddess, I would feel bad for not trusting you enough, if I didn’t know how understanding you are when it comes to the lasting impact of trauma.
Goddess, it’s hard for me to avoid hating myself, and it’s even harder for me to trust others.

I wish trying times would have less of an impact on my perception of goddess. But it seems to be a regular occurrence now that I fear her most whenever I’m not doing well, that I’m most convinced of being unworthy whenever I’m most convinced that I’m nothing but a burden.

But her word is absolutely unwavering. Her presence in my life is constant, no matter how I feel. Goddess is the greatest source of stability and persistence in my life. And even when I feel like my world is collapsing - the fact that she is above me, the fact that she is divine, is the one truth that I can always cling on to.

Thank you, goddess, for once again proving me wrong.
Thank you for giving me so many reasons to build trust again.
Thank you for showing me that so many of my worries are useless.
Goddess, I will never doubt you or your word.
I will never treat badly what is yours alone to rule over.
Thank you, goddess, for giving me a reason to fight through these pointless, destabilizing thoughts.
Thank you, goddess, for giving me a reason to stop hating myself.

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Meow.