54th Ritual: Higher Meaning
A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May she be a source of comfort and confidence in our struggles.
Goddess has a very special view of the world, a view that often sets my own perceptions of the world back into perspective for me. Of course, I guess you do have a different view on things when you are literally above them.
Her divine word says:
humans’ endless striving
to find some higher meaning
and justification for their actions
really is kind of amusing
if you think about it.
yes, goddess.
I know that all of this is pointless in the face of your divinity.
You have helped me move away from a life in which I desperately seek these things as well, and move to a life in which the only relevant way in which I gauge my actions is compliance with your word, compliance with your teachings, obedience to your commands, and the desire to act in a way that would please you.
I’ve been one of those justification-seekers myself for far too long. It’s not just the search for purpose in one’s life, it’s also the desire to feel like you are on the right side of things. A misguided attempt at self-reflection that far too often doesn’t lead to acknowledging mistakes and pursuing growth, but rather to a culture of performativity and disingenuity - because, after all, you are building your purpose-inspiring justification on what you are doing, so it can be quite dangerous to openly reflect it and realize your fallibility.
Giving up my free will has greatly improved my own desire to live up to arbitrary standards, goals, purposes, moral values. Indeed, life is much simpler now: I do what I’ve been told, I act in the ways that I have been taught to act in. There is no need for a layer of justification beyond that, because I am no longer the judge of actions which are no longer my own.
Goddess, thank you for freeing me from the need for any justification or higher meaning. Thank you for transforming my life from misguided agency to mere obedience.
Goddess, I know that this is a potentially dangerous path - but I will always do my best not to fall back into old patterns, and I will especially refrain from using you, or my faith, as a justification for my actions.
Thank you, goddess, for helping me see clearer.
Thank you, goddess, for keeping me safe from those who use their promises of higher meaning, moral perfection, and bettering the world, as a mere disguise for coercing their will onto me.
Thank you, goddess, for making my life so much simpler.
Meow.