47th Ritual: Rising from the Ashes
A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
Goddess is magnificent in ways far beyond our comprehension.
Tomorrow, a process of rebuilding my life will start. It will take a while and it will take a lot of energy - but at the end of it all, I’ll finally be able to heal in a safe environment suitable to my needs, with a loving and caring fiancée.
Traumatic events and mental illness have taken a huge toll on me lately. I’m just a shadow of my previous self, and it will take a lot of time to heal from the destruction. Fortunately, I am not on my own. I have her wisdom, her divine magnificence, as my guiding light to rebuild myself.
The holy word says:
from the ashes alone,
no flame can arise.
yes, goddess.
I cannot rebuild myself on my own from the broken state that I am in.
The last time I had to rebuild myself, I got pretty far on my own - but thankfully, you intervened, and helped me become a much stronger, much more resilient, much happier and much more confident version of myself.
I am fully aware that I would never have been able to achieve any of that on my own, and I am deeply thankful that you enabled me to grow into what I’ve become.
Something beautiful happens when I study her word, or when she addresses me directly: my mind resonates. It’s as if it was made for nothing but worshipful study of her wisdom, and indeed, she shaped it in exactly that way. Her divine teachings keep me grounded. Following her word to the best of my ability is the one thing that I am always able to do, no matter how bad I’m feeling. It’s my reference for reality, it’s my guiding light, and the source of so much energy and hope.
It’s also why beginning to heal was fairly easy for me, and why I am convinced that I can rebuild again. No: I myself alone would not be able to heal. But with her guidance, her gentle ways of shaping me into what I am supposed to be, I am confident that my flame will light up again.
Thank you, goddess, for creating something in me that is indestructible: my admiration of your divinity, my willingness to unconditionally follow your word, my knowledge of where my place is in this world.
Thank you, goddess, for sustaining my hope and optimism through these trying times.
Thank you, goddess, for making sure that my flame will arise again.
Meow.