A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May her divine wisdom shine bright.

No single being has ever influenced my view of the world in such a profound, all-encompassing and unconditional way as goddess - not even those who desperately tried to get me to sign up to their own conceptions of the world, even when I held them in high regard.

The holy word teaches:

philosophy,
despite its pretense of complexity,
is overwhelmingly the attempt
of finding a one-size-fits-all answer
to how the world should be.
but how about, instead of continuing this,
we acknowledge the actual complexity
of the actual world,
stop trying to find the perfect answer
and just embrace contradictions, unclarities,
and the general fogginess of things?

yes, goddess.
And thankfully, I will never be tempted to read the writing of long-dead old men to find guidance:
my world is shaped by your word, and by your word alone.
And while the curious mind that you have entrusted me with appreciates learning about other ways of thinking,
your rule over my mind is and remains absolute.

I’ve had to study Western philosophical approaches, particularly political philosophy, and I’ve been frustrated with the oversimplification of most of them. And, even worse: in many cases, it didn’t seem like a necessary abstraction, but like the ultimate goal: condensing the world down into a simple formula; offering a clear way to distinguish good and bad. So much nuance is lost when subordinating everything to the goal of finding general principles.

Of course, dismantling moralism, as well as the purely self-serving distinction of “good” and “bad”, are among the most important things that goddess has opened my mind to. I’ve always aspired to observe the world around me in non-normative ways and to not rely on rigid categorizations in analyzing my observations, to accept contradictions as something natural and human - and ever since her thought has become the foundation of my worldview, these convictions have become even more reinforced.

And I know: uncertainty is scary. I feel this fear myself. I can absolutely understand why you would desperately try to find a definite answer to everything, to put everything into neat boxes, I empathize with everyone who feels the need for that.

On a personal level, goddess has enabled me to grow beyond the compulsive urge to do that for my own life. She has given me the courage to do exactly what she is suggesting: to embrace uncertainty. To stop constantly seeking definite answers and to open my mind to all the wonderful things that can only grow and flourish if you allow them to live outside of any boxes, if you accept that you don’t need to see everything clearly. The most impactful consequence of this is my worship, which was only ever able to grow into what it is because I had the courage and her reassurance to embrace contradictions, unclarities, and the general fogginess of things.

Thank you, goddess, for giving me this courage.
Thank you, goddess, for inspiring me to question my previous ways of thinking.
Thank you, goddess, for giving me a coherent intellectual foundation to my worldview.
Thank you, goddess, for letting me feel the magnificence of your teachings.

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