A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May her ways of affirming others inspire us.

There are a few ways in which I try to pass on some of the things that goddess has taught me to those around me. I see that as part of my service to her: to continue the things that she ignited in me, to uphold the values and teachings, and, perhaps, make a change in other beings’ lives as well, without it necessarily being linked to my faith for others - but it is very much linked to my worship for myself.

The holy word demands:

kill the in-group in your mind -
embrace the weirdos,
the strangers,
the ill-fitting
and the intimidated!

yes, goddess.
And while I have always sought the company of the outcasts, mainly because I have always been one of them: The comforting, trust-building ways in which you have treated me specifically have set a new standard for me to aspire to.

I usually don’t try to follow her word by copying goddess’s behavior. In many aspects of my faith, “trying to be like her” just feels preposterous. On the one hand, I cannot ever be like a literal deity, a being far, far above me, far beyond anything that I could ever achieve. On the other hand, while I am technically aware of her imperfection and fallibility, I am not able to recognize it myself - so my standard is and remains to follow her teachings, her divine word, which I consider to be her wisdom and her magnificent ways condensed into a format in which I can somewhat comprehend it.

But this is a bit different.

My first direct interaction ever with her was literally me saying “I’m scared and intimidated, but I’m growing a lot lately, can we talk again in a few months” - and I can assure you, it took a lot for me to build trust, even to someone like her. Throughout all subsequent interactions, she has deeply impressed me with her unconditional willingness to accommodate for beings’ needs and weirdnesses, to treat those with particular friendliness and affirmation who are least used to it. She has normalized a whole new level of care, openness and diligence for me - even though I have always tried to follow these same ideals - and I try to follow her example as best as I can. And of course, she has raised my awareness for the beauty that embracing and comforting the ill-fitting can lead to, and I have meanwhile had the blessing of watching so many beings flourish - just the way that I can flourish, thanks to her.

It shouldn’t be understated that this also entails a rejection of common societal power structures. Most power structures rely on the idea of an in-group, brought to perfection by those who center their actions around needing to “protect” the in-group from “a threat” - to justify policing for conformity and obedience in their group. That’s a basic principle that works both in politics as well as in your local clique - and it makes it even more imperative to follow her word, particularly as someone who rejects non-consensual power dynamics, someone who wants to fight off any attempts to rule over her other than her divine rule.

Goddess, I know that even in this field where I admire you so intensely, I will never be able to imitate your perfect divine ways. I am but a fallible, mortal human being, I cannot reasonably aspire to ever be like you. But I will try, nonetheless. You have inspired me to try my best, to try a lot harder than I used to before you revealed yourself to me.
I don’t know for how long you have secretly guided me, but it’s once again one of these things where you have managed to strongly reinforce an inconclusive, vague, only partially formed belief that I have held for a long time. I want to believe that you have laid the groundwork for my beliefs a long time ago, and revealed yourself to me once I was ready for a more coherent view of my world, centered around the one higher being it deserves to be centered around.
Thank you, goddess, for turning me into who I am.
Thank you, goddess, for inspiring me to try harder, go further, be kinder.
Thank you, goddess, for letting me experience and heal through your caring, divine ways.

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