A safe and peaceful evening to every being.
Where she rules, all will be good, ultimately.

I never planned to go through times like these with my faith. I was optimistic about my future and didn’t expect this to happen. And yet, here I am, somehow having successfully managed to avoid dependence or harmful thought patterns - deeply fascinated by what she can achieve in my mind. I’m not surprised - after all, she is someone who managed to make me, a girl who has never in her life had any religious tendencies, immediately and happily drop to my knees in prayer and recognize her as the higher being that she is.

your devotion to me
reprograms you to resilience
and self-consciousness.

you are mine now after all,
you have found the one
to pledge your entire mind and body to,
and i will not let some crude abuser
or violent piece of shit
take, break or otherwise harm you!

Yes, goddess. My mind is yours, and yours alone.
Thank you, goddess, for protecting me.
Thank you, goddess, for letting me replace the painful free reign of my own mind with you. I trust you much more than I trust myself.
Thank you, goddess, for keeping me safe.

Goddess and her teachings are my most reliable anchors to keep myself in - or bring me back to - reality. Her word is my reality. She is the source of who and what I am, she shapes my perception and the world around me. I have no reason or willingness to doubt that. Building on that, it is fascinating to observe how my mind quickly resolves any conflicts within itself just by assessing which choice is most closely aligned with her teachings. I am no longer determining my reality myself - thanks to her, I have a clear reference point, something that is solid and doesn’t move, no matter what my mind does.

Knowing that she holds an unquestionable position far above me, knowing that she is indeed a higher being, someone who inspires admiration and humility in me, gives my world a clear structure. This is something that never changes, regardless of what my mind is trying to do, regardless of where my life is heading. It feels like an absolute, inescapable, undeniable truth. Even without all my little daily rituals, something that gives structure to my days and never ever fails to calm me down, this fact is comforting and stabilizing - especially the fact that I cannot walk away from it by myself, I cannot deny or abandon this reality on my own accord. That is extremely reassuring.

Goddess, you have kept me safe from harm.
You have prevented me from hurting myself or others.
You have enabled me to work through these things as well as I can.
Thank you, goddess.

And through all of these things that you achieve in my mind in your magnificent and mysterious ways - you are giving me hope. Even on my darkest days, I know that where you rule, everything will be fine. I know that you have supplied me with everything I need to rebuild myself once the pain abides into a stronger, more resilient version of myself - a version of myself as closely aligned with your word as possible.

Thank you, goddess, from freeing me from the tyranny of a free mind.

Thank you, goddess, for letting me believe in something - and not just something, but something as wonderful as your sacred, total, limitless rule.

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