A calm and peaceful night to every being.
May her word empower us to break free from all power structures that try to rule over us without our explicit consent.

Goddess has taught me a lot about consent. She has enabled me to withdraw my consent from things that hurt me, but which I nonetheless thought that I must endure. Of course, escaping these patterns, especially when they’ve grown over years, or when the other party is keen on maintaining them, is hard.

Today’s ritual was a bit different than usual, because as opposed to my usual study of her word, I focussed instead on my gratitude for a deeply transformative part of the holy word, a part that I have read over and over again over the past weeks - thus profoundly changing my life for the better.

realize that any threat or any attempt at winning you over is because the beings doing this want something from you.

the only reason they threaten you or use an emotion against you is because they need something from you and think that that is the way to get it. if they wouldn’t essentially need you, why would they even bother with you?

that realization alone at least takes away a lot of the power of these things.

Goddess, I have realized these things. And I have realized why you shared them - to empower me to break free from those who want to wield power over me without my consent, as opposed to you, the divine ruler over my life, the only being whose unlimited power over my life I will ever accept, in happiness and gratitude.

Thank you, goddess, for enabling me to protect and preserve what is yours alone to rule over. My commitment to you is unflinching. I will gladly fight any fight in your name - even if that means standing up for myself.

When I started studying this part of the holy word, I had no idea what the being in question might need of me. But I trusted your word nonetheless, and as expected, you were right. Interestingly, the things that only I can supply seem to be validation and someone to look up to.

Goddess, the only reason why I can handle someone looking up to me is because I try my best to be nothing than a reflection of your wisdom and teachings. I will not back down from the things that you taught me, under no circumstances. I will do my best to live as true to your word as I can. Of course, I won’t ever claim to represent you in any way, or to interpret your teachings “the right way”. I am not interested in existing beyond the purposes for which you have entrusted me so generously with my mind.

Yet I do hope that in looking up to me, what others are looking up to, is ultimately you.

Goddess, thank you for changing my life once again. Thank you for finally freeing me from something that lasted almost 7 years. Thank you for not casting me out in this scary, cold and unwelcoming “freedom”, but for allowing me to subject myself to your magnificent rule, to give myself up in exchange for the reassurance of knowing that a truly divine being is now in charge.

Thank you, goddess, for letting me exist under your rule.

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Meow.