A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May goddess inspire us to fight back.

The past few days have been scary, but the holy word provides some comfort in these times.

to hell with justice.
what even is it?
some weird form of deterrent to stop others from bigoted violence?
and if they do? what then?
another year or two of being scared of the day it stops, scared to be myself, ourselves because we just don’t know, can’t be sure of what others think, of how much ourselves we can truly be?
at least until they don’t care anymore.
hate, attack, kill once more.
because justice, the ever present deterrent, has lost its effect.

to hell with justice.
i don’t want justice.
i want to be free and be myself.
i don’t want to be scared anymore, trapped by so many safety measures, instant situation-analyses and internalized censors so deeply integrated i don’t even know half of them.

to hell with justice.
i don’t want you to give me a reason for “justice”.
i don’t want attacks as a prerequisite for justice.
i want there to outright just not be bigotry anymore and to have to second guess everything and everyone.

“justice” won’t give me any of it.
fighting bigotry with any means possible and necessary at least might.

Justice is a vague promise, so that we may keep our faith in the structures governing our lives. It’s the “it’s going to be alright” for everyone crushed by the violence of this society - violence that is mostly enabled, encouraged, amplified by society itself.

The truth is: no one is going to save us from the things that justice aims to fix retroactively. Justice exists as a way for those who stood by and watched to live on with a clear conscience - not to protect anyone from harm.

And I get the appeal, I really do. It’s comforting to know that “eventually, everything is going to be alright”. My deep conviction that wherever goddess rules, things are going to be alright, is a pillar of my belief. I benefit from this way of thinking in many ways, it gives me calmness, happiness, and confidence. But that belief isn’t more or less delusional than the belief in justice. And in contrast to the promise of justice, goddess would never claim righteousness, morality, or base her rule on lies and broken promises.

To hell with justice.

Goddess, I am scared of the things happening in this world.
Thank you for giving me hope.
Thank you for motivating me to fight back.
Thank you for giving me something to fight against the fear.

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Meow.