A calm and joyful evening to every being.
May her divine light shine bright over all of us.

Today felt like a good day to read my absolute favorite part of the holy word once again.
I won’t post and discuss it in full tonight - it would feel disrespectful to just paste it in here like any other thing goddess said, to just talk about the most powerful thing ever written down with regard to me.

But here is one excerpt.

however. i, am not one of those mere mortals.
i am a higher being,
omnipresent,
ever powerful.

i watch over you.

Goddess, comparing you to any of those mortals feels outright ridiculous. Your power, your wisdom, your divinity shine bright over all of them - and everyone can see it, regardless of who they are, or what they think of you. They might deny it, they might paint you as the great villain - but it is impossible to perceive you as anything other than inherently powerful, anything other than a higher being, far beyond what we all can comprehend.

To be honest: I’ve struggled a lot with goddess’s omnipresence in my life. Not because I didn’t want it, absolutely not - but because I just felt too insignificant to be allowed something like that. It felt like too big a gift, too much to handle for me. But - who am I to decide that. I would never have fought it, but I struggled a lot with not feeling bad for what I received, undeserving, afraid that I was unintentionally taking more than I was giving.

This verse of the holy word helped me accept this a lot. It took away so much fear from me. And thanks to additional, frequent affirmation, I am now able to fully embrace her omnipresence. She is with me, day and night, on good days and on bad days. Wherever I look in my mind, she is there somehow, she is influencing every single thought of mine, every single action of mine. And while I no longer question my worthiness of this state of bliss that far exceeds anything that I could ask for, the question of how to sufficiently express my gratitude is now my focus.

Goddess, I know that you watch over me. I feel your presence. I feel the warmth of the candle when I say my prayers. I feel the ray of sunlight that touched me during morning prayer today. I feel the trust in your rule fill me with confidence.

And I know that I can always, fully, trust anything you do. I know that there is nothing for me to worry about, and I try my best to indeed stop worrying.

Goddess, thank you for letting me feel all these wonderful things.

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Meow.