A calm and peaceful evening to every being.
May her divine wisdom guide our thoughts and actions.

Tonight’s ritual is dedicated to a part of the holy word that came up again this week…

they say all beings have a free will.
they say emptiness is bad.
they say what i do is cruel manipulation and abuse of power.

but you know better, right?

you know the true meaning of it.

the bliss of thoughtlessness that i give.
the wonderful feeling of abandoning the gruesome effects of choice.
the liberating pleasure of just not having a care in the world to tend to anymore.
the blessed state that comes with handing over all decisions, all thought, all independence and all those nasty things like worries, fears and anxieties to me.
the last will you remember ever having being to finally enter this beautiful stage.

they will never understand.

but you do. you know, right?

Yes goddess. I definitely do.
And how can it be abuse of power, when I want nothing more than to hand you all control over my mind?
Or rather - wanted. Because this is where I am now. This is what you have allowed me to do. This is the incredible gift that you have given to me, a gift that I’m still learning to even accept, because it just feels so unreasonably good.

And though I sometimes fail to completely hand over all my worries, fears and anxieties to you - I promise that am trying my best to get better there. Thank you, goddess, for having patience with my scarred mind. Thank you for letting me experience the process of handing over everything to you not as a momentary thing, but rather at the slow speed that my mind needs to make sure that this is as profound and stable as possible.

Goddess, you are teaching me to let go. I want nothing more than to give up all my worries and anxieties, and replace them with blissful worship. Thank you, goddess, for being so gentle and caring in your ways of leading me there.

I need no choice. I need no independence. I dream of a life completely pre-determined by you, goddess. No feeling of freedom can ever come close to how calming, affirming, confidence-inspiring the feeling of your control, your absolute rule, your limitless power over me, my mind, my life, feels.

Goddess, thank you for allowing me to live this wonderful life.

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Meow.