A wonderful and exciting evening to every being.
May goddess’s word reach everyone who wants to hear it.

Today is a special day. This week marks half a year since I’ve started turning prayer into a habit, since I’ve started to learn how this way of communication with goddess actually works, and which aspects are important.

Furthermore, today, the parts of the holy word that I have alreday written down on paper, have finally moved into a more dignified home than just “somewhere in my cult drawer”. I am determined to improve this shrine over time, I will replace the cardboard box with a wooden one, I will replace the cloth with a more precious one. But for now, I hope to be able to treat the holy word with the dignity and veneration that it deserves.

I have decided to celebrate these two joyful events today in a more festive than usual blood sacrifice. I have obtained a delicious cinnamon bun for the occasion, to feast on it in celebration of her magnificence, in adherence to her teachings of pleasure and enjoyment. I have chosen two passages of the holy word for tonight instead of one, and I have decided to add a more extensive than usual expression of gratitude to this sacrifice, to express how deeply grateful I am that she is sharing her word with us, how deeply grateful I am for the changes that it has brought to my life, and how much it matters to me.

Also, I have realized that my current altar setup is too small to accommodate the holy word, a cinnamon bun, the holy breadknife and everything else^^ But the improvised expansion of my slightly less improvised altar even allowed me to put some more candles on the altar today because special ritual and everything!

yes, I have finally used the holy breadknife in a religious setting, and of course I had the idea of licking it to create the wound for the sacrifice, but I immediately heard goddess’s voice going “Liiiiiiis!” in my head^^

Holy lynx,
my lady and savior,
my beacon of guidance.

I hold your holy word in my hands, in disbelief that I am allowed to have, read, touch this miraculous expression of your divinity.

I feel small besides your word. I feel my own insignificance, in a very comforting and reassuring way. I know that everything inside me can easily be overruled or rearranged by these letters that represent just a fraction of your power. I know that I can grow from what I can read here, that studying your word will lead me to happiness. I know that your holy and most accomplished word is just a tiny fraction of the true divine power you hold, your wisdom condensed down to a format in which my mundane mind can comprehend it.

Thank you, goddess, for gifting your word to the world.
Thank you, goddess, for taking the time to verbalize your unsurpassed wisdom.
Thank you, goddess, for shaping me through your word into who I am today.

Goddess, I promise to cherish your word, I promise to hold it in dignity. I promise to never justify my actions with it, but instead, use it for self-reflection and growth.

Thank you, goddess, for every expression of your word.

Meow, meow, meow, meow.

The celebration of the holy word is the most important aspect of tonight, so I decided to look at its nature in detail.
Goddess tells us:

my word is not law
for law is a human concept
to be interpreted
and left devoid of any meaning.

my word is not anything
as pathetic as that.
rather, it is a description
of the future,
a detailed account
of what is inevitably to happen
directly transmitted to the mind
of anyone it is directed at.

Yes, goddess. Your word far supercedes any human rules, laws, or norms, simply by the fact that it requires no justification, no enforcement, no sad attempts at conveying legitimacy. There is no way to dispute it, for it stands absolute, and carries inherent power with it. There is no doubt, no ambiguity in your word, and that makes the process of having it directed at oneself such a blissful one. Your word takes away all the terrible feelings of free will, uncertainty, of any thoughts not planted in my mind by you. “Law” doesn’t even aim at that - it could never achieve anything like that.

And yet, and please forgive me, goddess, I do describe her word as my law. Not because I want to disrespect it, but because it has replaced all other laws, morals, rules, and the like, for me. Her word is the guiding principle of my life, and the only set of rules I am interested in following. I have freely given myself to her, and I reaffirm it every day by asking her to rule over me in my prayers. In turn, no one else must rule over me. And how should they - for no one will ever hold the power inherent to goddess and her word, for she exists far beyond all powers of the mundane realms that we dwell in.

I would like to finish today’s discussion of her word with an instruction that she personally gave me, something that has of obviously immediately become central in my life.

now go out there my devoted one,
and relish in the blessings and miracles
put into that mind,
body and world of yours
by me
for you to enjoy
and find pleasure in!

I do, and I will, goddess.
Actively searching for beauty in life with the intention of attributing it to you and thanking you for it has vastly improved my life. So many small things that I would otherwise barely have given a thought are now sources of happiness for me, because I know that someone is watching over me, I know that someone is guiding me. I know that I no longer have to work by the cruel scientific concept of chance. And I know that I should never let an opportunity for enjoyment and pleasure pass, which is why I celebrate it in your name tonight.

CN: blood. Click to show.

Meow.