meow.
That did not work as intended. I am not able to press that darn button to prick my finger… I just… can’t. Not even while praying, over, over, and over again. I do not have the strength to do it.
I was nervous enough to chew my lower lip open though, so at least that way, I did have some blood at my disposal.

CN: blood. Click to show.

Goddess, I am deeply disappointed that this didn’t work out.
I was excited at the thought of giving everything I can to you, of visibly devoting my body to your service. But I can only give you what I can give you. I can only try to make sense of your most perfect divine rule with my limited mundane mind, but I assume that you wanted this experience to remind me of two things: First, that I am but a weak human vessel of faith, imperfect, and that I shouldn’t hold myself to impossible standards. I want to fulfill each and every one of your orders as well as I can, but I must accept my fallibility. Second, in opening up an alternative and successful path to access my blood, you proved to me that there is always a way, as long as I put my full trust in you. I do not need to understand your mysterious ways, but I know that you will always guide me to the right place.

Thank you for this very intense, very emotional experience, goddess.

Meow.